Sense my previous-self

Hi salam readers!😁
Idk how to start, so,,
Hv fun reading!

"Kau taktahu weh, dia tu depan lain , belakang lain gila"

I do remember his words. I mean my closest friend's in school. Trust me. I never thought yang I dgn that person yang dia mention tu would become as closed as we were. Satu hari tu, aku sedar yang EH WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY? Is he wanna be my friend? Teringatkan apa yg my closest friend aka AK cakap tu, i even ask manyy peops if i really can make him as friend. Pastu, ada yg ckp kenapa pe semua, and they said hes ok cuz dia tak pernah kutuk i kat skolah mcm mana dia kutuk this one girl. Dia takde pulak  cerita dia taksuka I. And yeah, i also ask AK , and dia cuma suruh i berhatihati, sbb dia taktahu la yg tht guy camana skrg sbb manusia boleh berubah. And dia tanak la halang org lain berkawan, but tu lah AK asked me to be extra careful.

Yep , i hv been EXTRA CAREFUL, but idk , maybe im not that careful or Allah just want this to happen kan. Udah deh serahin aja sama Allah . HEHE . rn, Allah shows me bukan cuma dia depan lain belakang lain, he also cakap lain buat lain. Allahuu .

IT IS MY FAULT EXPECTING HE WOULD BE SINCERE EITHER IN FRONT OR MY BACK .
IT IS MY FAULT I DIDNT CAREFUL ENOUGH IN CHOOSING FRIEND.
IT IS MY FAULT HOPING THAT HE WILL TURN OUT TO BE SOMEONE BETTER.

So, i pilih utk build distance. So that he will no longer can do "depan lain belakang lain" towards me.
How?
I know what his dislikes, Ive been someone he doesnt like ha ha ha gigih kan sis? Weh im no longer can bear those hurts ah. Sama je dpn lain blkg lain tu dgn TIPU . SAMA! hahaha k tak emo. Okay lepastu, alhamdulillah biiznillah, Allah let the distance appears between us. And alhamdulillah hes with someone else now. Allah saves me . Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah 💜.

Trust me, im tired of being someone who i am not. And since, Allah has made him fall into that girl, i can be me myself back. Alhamdulillah. And currently, i feel like myself again biiznillah alhamdulillah. I could sense the muka kerek my acts towards stranger. I feel like undergoing recoveries, more independant, more garang and wiser. Alhamdulillah i sense my prev-self.

Ya Muqallibal Qulub, thabbit qalbi fi di nik. Amiin.
Night! Wassalam 😊

My very last chance that you wasted.

Salam peops.

I would like to start this entry dgn my tweet harini,,

You hurt me more than he did . But these days,i bleed less than before 😁 #countingdaystoleavezefeels nananananana 

Lets start puitisnyaaa!

You hurt me more than he did. But these days, i bleed less than before.
You made me fell harder than i ever was. Gratefully, i rise quicker than you ever thought.

I gave you my very last chance that millions of guys always wanted , but you wasted it easily.
I taught myself to learn accepting others' flaws, and youre the first who earned, but you never realised.

Now, how much i realised i really shouldnt give you the chance. 
In days forward, ill go .
Somewhere far away to leave the feels that i ever felt for you. 
Exactly like what i did to him-in-my-past. 
Like how i left every piece of love for him in Seoul. 
Trust me, insyaallah biiznillah, ill be completely heal right after im home.

As i arrive there, ill consider everything is done. My done is a forever done. There will be no second chance for ya.

These few months, i gave you space.time. to think.to realise. But seems like you never even need em. 

Im sorry because all i would do is moving on . Thankyou for existing. 


Alhamdulillah Im healing insyaallah thankyou.
Sincerely,SM.

Bait penghargaan seorang Hamba.

Salam Ramadhan Kareem wa Barakah.
So, words are currently playing in my mind, so enjoy!
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. 😊

Dear Allah yang menggenggam hati aku,

Buruknya aku, Kau ilhamkan kebaikan.
Sombongnya aku, Kau taarufkan kesyukuran.
Gelisahnya aku, Kau ukir ketenangan.
Berdosanya aku, Kau rezekikan keampunan.
Jahatnya aku, Kau detikkan keinsafan.
Lemahnya aku, Kau kurniakan kekuatan.
Susahnya aku, Kau nyatakan kemudahan.
Sakitnya aku, Kau datangkan kesembuhan.
Sedihnya aku, Kau hadirkan kegembiraan.
Marahnya aku, Kau kenalkan erti kesabaran.
Deritanya aku, Kau berikan kebahagiaan.
Peritnya aku, Kau hulurkan kesenangan.
Sulitnya aku, Kau suluhkan jalan.
Buntunya aku, Kau tunjukkan penyelesaian.
Rebahnya aku, Kau ajarkan kesungguhan.
Tewasnya aku, Kau bimbingku ke arah kemenangan. 
Sunyinya aku, Kau sentiasa menjadi peneman.

Ya Rabb yg Maha Menguasai seisi langit dan bumi, dunia dan akhirat, nyata dan ghaib, serta segala tiap sesuatu. Sungguh, Allahu rabbi adalah sebab dan punca aku masih bertahan, masih teguh berdiri, di saat semua yakin aku akan tersungkur. Benar, Dia lah satu-satunya harapan aku,kamu dan kita. Duhai diri, dan semua, moga kita tidak berputus asa untuk redha dan rahmatNya, kerana Dia, sentiasa ada untuk kita. الحمدلله .

أستغفر الله العظيم
حسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل نعم المولى ونعم النصير

Sincerely,
HambaNya yang masih merangkak menuju redhaNya.